I’ve been away far too long.  My brain has been on a hiatus…

I’ve had little trivial happenings going on, but just the thought of sitting down and writing them out tired me…

I have not been myself as of late…I wake up every morning wondering when I will be coming back…

Parts of me are constant…I still laugh and joke….

But man, I have started crying like a little girly girl lol

My doctor decided she would like to see how my body reacted to the bc pill.  I was willing to try it considering my hormones are so outta whack on a good day…and I had nothing to lose.

Did I mention I am 34 and have never taken the pill before?

Well, nausea is a daily thing for me.  Oddly enough…I can deal with that.  As quickly as it comes it goes…and life resumes back to normal.

It’s the crazy mood swings that I am finding so difficult.  I will cry at the drop of a dime.  It doesn’t matter what it is…if it moves me, I am pile of mush on the floor.

I heard about a man who was struck by lightening and killed the other day (yes, very sad in it’s own rite)  But I cried.  I thought about him, 28 years young, the family he left behind…and I wept as if I knew him.  Can we say straight jacket????  This from a girl who is generally a rock.

I go from crazy happy to supreme bitch in .2 seconds…how my partner hasn’t walked out is beyond me!!!!

Now when I have a moment…she looks at me…and all she says is “hormones” and shakes her head…which in turn makes me laugh for being a total hormonal idiot. Lol

I hope all this balances itself out.  I am tired of being a “moosh moosh” as my partner calls it.

I’d like to trade in my girly parts for a pair of brass balls please.  All the girly emotional tear jerking crap is making me hate myself!

Today is a better day tho…lets hope for more good than bad.

As you were…