black n’ white

You want things…I don’t know that I can give you.

I want things you say you want…but I think you just want them because I want them.

We go round and round in a circle that makes me so dizzy….i could hurl.

It’s like you want black and I want white…and we dance in the greyness of it all and call it the same thing.

I ache for things…the same way that you do.
They are just different things…
We smile and nod and say yes….but do we really mean it?

I coo over babies…you coo over puppies

You want Xmas…all I can give you is Boxing Day.

You want dinner with my family…all I can give you is left overs.

You want black, I give white.

You deserve more…more than me.

I deserve that too.

missing…

my life has been craaaazy as of late.

I have been so busy that i have not had ANY time to write..or should i say to write anything worthwhile.

Work has completely changed…i am working TWO full time positions at the moment.  It’s insanity…however the more i learn the more i enjoy being this busy.  Go figure.  They gave me a crackberry…and to be honest it’s not as much of an intruision to my life as i thought it would be….it’s actually quite helpful.

I get to hang out with Daryl Sitler…me and Daryl, chilling out.  Imagine.  All the men in my life are crazy excited for me lol…me…meh, he may be a famous dood…but he is also just a person.  This is one of the perks of my job.

My niece is due in 4 days!!!!!  Chances are she won’t be coming on her exact due date…but the day is fast approaching and i just CAN’T wait to meet her…see her…hold her.  I can’t recall a time where i have ever been so eager for something to happen.

I just wanted to drop buy and fill a page with some random thoughts…let people know that, no…i am not dead

Hopefully i’ll be back sooner than later