recoup n’ regroup

I needed quiet time.  I needed “shhhhhh”  Although how I get that in a home with 5 critters is the question.

Over indulding…over eating, over drinking, over loading…go-big-or-go-home-goddess-like things.

Go go go!

Tonight I said stop.

Socially over stimulated, old friends, new friends, family, laughter…and more laughter…happy tears…over-loving…wait no…that’s not right…

An abundance of love…tears because of love, smiles because of love…monkey love heh heh.  Never too much monkey love!

I put on the brakes tonight.  I wanted some time…to recoup and regroup.

Take a break from the break.

I am spent and content.
I welcomed the noise…now I welcome the quiet.

I made the decision the other night to venture out into the village.  I haven’t made an appearance there since…oh…August I think.  Drinks and old friends and catching up…and love…hugs…the kind that take your breath away…the kind that make you wonder why you stayed away so long.  The kind that only someone who loves you can give you.

Over stimulation I say.

And I loved every single bit of it.

Tonight is hushed and quiet…and calm and reflective.  So many moments floating through this head of mine that I am sure I have a million things to write about.

But I already broke my first promise to myself tonight.  I am not supposed to be here.  If I am “talking” I am not being quiet now am I?

I can’t help it tho…

Even tho I’m quiet…my heart has so much to say.

But i won’t.  Not tonight.

I am off to bed with a good book…and my run away carcass eating dog…who incidentally has gas that could kill a small village…

But anyways…that’s for another day lol

I’m off…g’nite

christmas rambles…

Being on vacation and it being the holiday season…has made the days run into eachother.

I have to actually think about what day of the week it is.

My vacation has been long over due…my body is enjoying the “rest”.

I am not too sure how much rest you can get celebrating, but it’s been nice not to have to worry about getting to the office (although I will be going in tomorrow on my own time just to finish off some things before 2008 passes us by)

Christmas was amazing.  I managed to get spoiled crazy!!!  My body is sore from the wii fit.  I can tell you tho that I got some mad hula hoop skills kids. Lol

I got pretty much everything I asked for and then some.

My niece made Christmas all the more special.  I have my facebook riddled with pictures of her…so if you are on there go take a look at the gorgeousness that is my niece.

It was wonderful…all of it.  Elle Bee and I opening gifts in the early morning…sitting by the tree, drinking coffee.  Everything I got meant something…so well thought out…so nice to have someone in your life that listens to you…and captures what’s important…and holds on to it…

Oh I am babbling…but my point was that it was awesome.

This year was the best Christmas I have ever had…ever.

You know what’s scary?  Today was even more awesome.  A Monday spent at the Laundromat.  ‘Tis true.

We had so much fun.  Throwing clothes in the washers…going for a bite to eat and then coming back to fold together….I am pretty sure we made everyone around us want to vomit.  I am sure they felt the moony moony vibes a mile away.  Not like we were sucking face or anything like that…but really…have you ever seen people excited about laundry?? Lol

No one could shit on our parade. Lol

I had the luxury of an early evening nap….and so I am pretty much wide awake right now.  Hence the  blog of rambles.

Tomorrow I will start to get the house ready for the next celebration.  New Years Eve.  I am excited!!!  Nothing like good company, good food, some drinks and a new start.

Everything is going where I want it to go…

Everything is feeling so right…everything feels as it should…

And I feel perfect…I feel magical…I feel blessed.

I AM blessed.

I am off to try and get some shut eye.

Hope your Xmas was as magical and beautiful as mine.

oh xmas tree…

I spent the evening wrapping gifts.  I am finally done.  I am able to say that yes…this goddess is ready for Xmas!

I was supposed to go into work tomorrow to get some last minute things done.  My boss emailed me tonight on my crackberry and told me to work from home.  Yay!  It’s snowing like crazy out there, which would make my drive in brutal…and besides this way I can stay up a little longer than I should.

I am soooo excited about Xmas this year!!  I just poured myself a glass of wine, lit some candles…and decided to let my blog world know that I am ready.

I’ve never looked forward to Xmas like I have this year.  I am not too sure why.  Maybe it’s my niece…her first Xmas…the first baby in our family.  Maybe it’s because of Elle Bee and her Xmas spirit?  Maybe it’s because for the first time in a long time…I am just so absolutely happy with life.  2008 wasn’t such a bad year.  I mean it wasn’t perfect…there were A LOT of changes and adjustments…but out of those changes…so much good came.

So as it is in my nature…I sat here and reflected a bit.  Tomorrow…a year ago…was when I went to say good bye to my godfather.  It’s been a year already…and it really doesn’t feel that way.  January 13^th will be a year that he has been gone.  I miss him a lot…but I am also thankful he is no longer in pain…and I know he’s here with me.

Yes, life took a lot of leaps and turns this year…and I survived them all.  It was a good year my friends…a fantastic year.

I wanted to share my tree with you…so take a look below.  People are saying there is a recession….apparently I didn’t get the memo. Lol.  I kid…thank you Master Card.

I just CAN’T wait.

Merry Xmas friends…